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These posts document my journey on this road of recovery, you can start almost anywhere but to get the whole story I would read Where My Journey Starts to get this kicked off.
Hear You Me, So Long, Goodbye
A story about a man who lost something precious, and how he spent a year figuring out how to live with a broken piece of himself.
2020
2019 ended and so entered 2020 Bill who was ready to ride into whatever dangers the world would dare impose onto him. I marched readily and confidently into this new year regardless of what struggles would lie ahead. After all, I was healed from all the pain and strife that had plagued me so. The…
And I Set My Hear Ablaze 心を燃やせ
My last post was a little over 2 years ago. A lot has happened since then. I spirted myself away into another country, I battled demons stronger than I had previously before, I found betrayal at a place where I thought I would find love, I found peace where I thought I would find my…
A Letter to My 8 Year Old Self
Hey there kid, it’s one of the worst and most defining moments of your life. You’re only in 3rd grade and honestly trying to remember what happened to us, it’s a fuzzy white haze. It’s whited out almost as if our brain had activated a defense mechanism to protect our psyche from what happened. But…
Sunset
It is the final sunset of 2019, the dawn of a new decade approaches and I go into the city by the bay, San Francisco, to say my peace with everything I’ve let go of this year. In the picture captured above is a random parent I saw on the way up to this small…
Tradition
It is December of 2019, just a few weeks left until the new decade. With everything that had happened leading up to the end of this year, it felt surreal to have made it here alive. For the first time in my life, I had felt hopeful for the next day, for the next week,…
Winter’s Aid
November 2019 It’s now mid-November and Winter is in full bloom. The nights are longer, the crisp cold air, the piercing winds, the quietness of the night as people huddle together in their homes for warmth. I have always loved winter, others love the warm sun, the long days, but I thrived in the piercing…
Falling Into Recovery
October 2019 My Summer was lit on fire with daily dosages of self-pity, self loathing, and lying on the floor feeling absolutely worthless. There would be nights where I’d sleep on the wooden vinyl floor because I felt like that’s where I belonged. Working in education, I had the entire summer off but that also…
Summer Fire
June 2019 You might think that up until this point objectively my life had been going great. If I had not hinted that everything I was doing was just a futile attempt of keeping my brain busy, to stop it from processing the emotions I was supposed to be feeling, you would’ve thought I had…
Spring Growth
April 2019 Spring of 2019 came with a storm of growth for me. I had thrown myself at a lot of opportunities in order to cover up all of the hurt that was going on within me and during that time it really seemed to work. And if you looked at me, you wouldn’t even…
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